BEVERLY ALVINA LOWING (THOMAS)

Condolences & Memories (1 entries)

• I didn't speak at your funeral or submit anything for the minister to read, I think that I was the only one (out of your kids) who didn't. I'm not 100% sure why I didn't although I think about it often, and at the time I may have thought that what I had to say meant too much to share, or maybe it was my own selfishness that kept me from honoring you in front of everyone because I was too sad that you had been taken away from me. Either way, it's been 6 years since you lost your battle to Cancer and I think you deserve something to be said from me about your life. My mother was an amazing woman, she devoted her life to her family and sacrificed more than I'd like to think about for her kids. She was the hub of our family and the glue that kept us close. Family was what meant the most, her Children, her Husband, her Mother, her Brothers and Sisters, Nieces and Nephews, her Cousins, Uncles, and Aunts, She thought and worried about all of you, and would still be today if she were here. My Mom was also my Best friend, she knew me better than anyone. She had the ability to see that I was upset about something just by looking at me, even if I were smiling and trying to keep it from her. She would look in my eyes and simply say "Jaason", and every time I would break down. To be honest I hated it at the time because I didn't like having to deal with the issue, but she was always there to help me work through it. I don't think anyone will ever know me as well as she did. My Mom also offered the best advice, she made every problem so simple to understand and gave me courage to get through it because I knew I wasn't alone. Whenever I approach a problem today I think about what advice she would have for me and how she would have helped me through it. What I remember most is how safe it felt around her, the feeling that nothing could be that bad because she would be there, and how I took that for granted. I'm not sure what else to say that most wouldn't already know. I have endless stories to share but I'm afraid that I would be writing for the next 3 weeks so I guess I will keep the rest of the stories for myself and keep her memory alive by remembering who she was and how she lived. I will never forget that May 25th, 2006 I lost not my Mom, my Best Friend, my Guardian Angel. - Posted by: Jason (Son ) on: May 27, 2012